I did have a sponsor but now in transition. Yes, Sapling that is part of the problem. Wasn't really my choice though and threw me for a loop. That's the problem I have I think. Whenever life happens on life's terms I have a problem with it. I need to learn how to deal with these things without drinking. Right now I try to stay positive and go about life like nothing is wrong and then I drink and wonder why. Thanks so much for making me think about this. It helps a ton!