Thanks D, you're absolutely right. I find I do great when I go to meetings everyday, come on here and post, read recovery memoirs, etc.
I did so well over the holidays because I threw myself into recovery and family. Now that I'm back to work, it all kind of fell apart and I need to work on "why" and get better at multitasking. I have a hard time making numerous things in life a priority. With my job, I let recovery and work on myself go to the wayside. I'll keep making adjustments and hopefully I can make it stick once and for all.