Funny how even when you want to make changes in life, see the value in making those changes, it is still often times so hard to follow through with it. Old habits die hard... This seems to be the case for everyone in everyday life really (How many people out there were horrified the first time they caught themselves with one of their parent's less then ideal traits!?? noooo!!!)
It's so easy to say to yourself, "I hate this, I'll make the change." You know you have the ability to change (hopefully), what you can do to start making the change (hopefully), the desire to change (hopefully).
I hope, that I will always have hope.