Just had a call off Nick (husband),
He is planning on taking tomorrow off work so we can go walking with the dogs together.
He knows I am suffering and having to spend hours in bed, so he wants me to get out and about walking again, but he knows I'm too nervous at the minute to go out without him, I swear I have the best husband in the world!!!
So hopefully tomorrow after the walk we can start working on the garden again because I have neglected it for a couple of weeks and since getting Holly the new one she's not got any idea of what areas she can go on and which she can, so it's been trampled on a bit!!!
I am going through such a rough patch, i don't know what to do with myself, I can't sleep all day but feel like I need to, and then I'm scared I'll get up and just go for a drink, luckily there is no alcohol in the house and Nick will keep it that way, because at the minute I won't leave the house unless it's with him to make sure I don't drink. Crazy or what!! I am never putting him or myself through this again!!!!!
Kat xxxx