At the end, when my drinking was at its worst, I knew I had to quit. It wasn't fun anymore, it didn't feel good anymore, and I had to drink in order to stop the shakes that would start first thing in the morning. But I kept asking myself, "If I don't have booze, what do I have?" I could not envision a life without alcohol. I think we've all been there. Now that I'm sober, I can't envision going BACK to that life with alcohol.
Your story is so similar to the rest of us! We've all been there. I hope that gives you some comfort and encouragement. Keep coming back - there is all kinds of support here.
