I have cracked open the big book but not read all of it. well no where near all of it to be honest. and maybe one day AA would be a good idea for me, for now I could do online meetings but not physcial ones as I am not in a country that has stuff like that and if they did it wouldn't be in english. But thanks for the ideas you are no where near the first to say this and belive me I would actually like to go to one to see if it could help and to see what they are like. But for now at least and for the next almost two years it is just not an option.
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