Originally Posted by
aeo1313 
This made sense to me. I have had trouble making my husband understand I have a problem and no on else in my life knows anything is going on. I almost want to force him to see I am NOT OK in my life.
I can relate to this because I was so used to fooling everyone, including myself. I managed to look like I had it all together but on the inside I was falling apart. Right now I am just trying to be honest with myself and others and say, hey, I am not okay and I want to stop pretending. It's not like I go out and share my issues with everyone but I am refusing to be fake in my affairs. I may not telling every detail of my story or even say I'm an alcoholic or I've been depressed, etc., but neither do I act like I am some superwoman who has it all together. I am re-examing every area of my life and making sure I am being true to myself. I am trying hard not to be afraid to speak my truth, and examining my motives. Good luck. You can do this.