Not annoyed at you - but scared for you - that's for sure.
Are you freaking because you see this as the beginning of "never being able to drink again?" and you're trying to get your best high on?
If so - just stop thinking of it that way. For now just commit to stop for a month ok? I got freaked in the beginning also and then just came to terms with it. I still can't think of never so right now I'm going to drink again once I turn 75 (I'm 49 now). For some reason I can deal with it knowing that when I'm 75 I'll let myself again. Now when I get close will I? - who the he** knows but for now it's keeping me sane. And as time goes on it is getting easier and easier. I go for hours now without thinking about alcohol or pills (I also liked hydros and had been hooked on xanax for a few years).
Keep posting - we're here - we're support - we all want you to succeed. Not because we want more miserable sober people LOL it's actually because life is better.