icandoit, I just read through your posts over the last 50 days or so. That is so awesome that you have made it this far!! Keep on going!!
I know exactly what you have been through. I abused pain pills for some time. Not fun to come down from. It also jolted my wife when she found out I was abusing them. She knew I was taking them because of my cancer and back problems, she didn't know I was eating them like candy. We came very close to divorce. Our relationship is still very precarious. It takes a long time to build up that trust again.
Keep going strong!!
God bless.