The mind chatter is driving me nuts, but it's not an XABF, it's an AB(brother). I can't give up on him, he's my family, and has always been my favorite in the family. I used to joke with his girlfriends that they came and went but he would always be my brother.
The fact that I've not seen him or spoken to him for the better part of a year only seems to make the worry worse. I miss him so much and want so much for him to get help.
I have been working hard on myself, lost a lot of weight, built a shade garden out of a patch of irrigation creek, we're building a house and start moving in tomorrow, i'm in a show. I haven't just been sitting around obsessing, I've been doing everything and still am obsessing. How do you get past that?