Old Member/New Name
Hi all-
My name is Laura and I was a member here several years ago and I can't remember my user name or even the email address my account was under, so I am re-registering.
My story:
My husband is addicted to prescription pills. Mainly xanax but opiates tickle his fancy too. He'd pretty much take whatever pain pill was available. He got clean for several years but obviously, he isn't still clean because I wouldn't be here otherwise.
Anyway...that's neither here nor there because an addict is an addict is an addict right?
So we now have a child together (an oops of the most blessed kind) and although you THINK that a child will be enough, he or she is not. My son is 19 months old.
My husband relapsed right before Thanksgiving and although I made some of the same mistakes I did the first time around, I kept it in a much shorter time span this time. I meet with an attorney on Tuesday to draw up my separation agreement. AH is clean right now and has agreed to sign because I threatened to take him to court on habitual drunkeness (prescription medications fall under this category) if he didn't and he is well known in the community and doesn't want that exposure.
So.....my son and I have been staying in our house but will be moving out because I can't pay for it and I'm going to sign it over to him (he is the only borrower, I'm only a title holder) and get out from under it.
I guess I'm emotionally okay....just really disappointed and hurt. I learned the right stuff the first time around. Like I know it isn't about me and it's nothing that he's doing TO me.
It still is hard all the same.
Anyway...I'm back. I'm here for the support that I got the first itme around because it was awesome (after I pulled my head out of my butt and actually LISTENED to those who have been there before me).