I have been in many "recovery homes". Some are stricter than others and it may not be a good fit. I was in one where we couldn't use the bathroom during the meeting and had to walk (were forbidden from taking bus) up to 4 miles for meetings. They told us we needed to learn to be grateful. Needless, to say I lasted only 2 weeks there. If you have to look for a new recovery house do not feel like a failure. It doesn't mean you can't stay sober. I eventually did move to one and lived there for a year. I really enjoyed it and got to learn a lot about recovery.