(((()))) I'm so sorry you are in this situation but you must realize you have made the best decision - putting your recovery first above all else, at any cost. I know that doesn't make it any easier or less painful but you can do this. I am all too familiar with being completely self destructive in the way of cutting, ED's, drugs and alcohol...anything to numb the pain inside. You deserve better than that and I'm glad you had someone to turn to in your time of need. You are in my thoughts. Please take care of you.
-Jess