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Old 01-06-2012, 04:05 AM
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zorilla
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Hurt,Angry,& Sad

I am very upset because I had to choose between the man I'm in
love with or recovery.Recovery really sucks right now.
My boyfriend went to the Dr. yesterday and asked them to prescribe Adderal(my number 1 pill for destruction purposes).
My thinking before speaking idea flew out the window.
I said,"you better be ******* kidding me!!" I told him that he needs to move out.

After I calmed down I told him that I was more hurt than angry because I had to choose between him and recovery.He tried putting a guilt trip on me by saying that he didn't feel hurt when I got better.He believes that the pills will make him better.

I'm just tired of crying and needed to type.Thank God I've got a good sponsor because I wanted to hurt myself by cutting,drinking,pills,or something.I always want to punish myself for some reason.



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