Also, none of us go back to the way we were. Life experiences change who we are - and that is how it should be. Keep moving forward in your life. Make your life the best it can be based on the choices you make each day. Watch out for your own best interests. You are responsible for that.
How true that is. I also realized that each relationship is like a stepping stone to a better tomorrow. I don't regret the many bad choices I made because I learned from them. And more importantly I didn't get lost in them forever. It did take me a while with some more than others but foreword and onward I go.
I wish you all the best.