Thank you all so much. I feel like a weight has been lifted just by posting here about what I am going through. I think I am going to go ahead with going to the meeting again, maybe try yoga to feel healthy and keep my mind off things. I would like to get back to reading too. I was an English major in college and I love books. Just got a Nook during the holidays, so I plan on putting it to good use
I will keep everyone posted on my progress. I can't wait to put the steps in motion towards being a better mother.