DVM2015: What a great goal for you!!
Ah, see? His heart isn't his to give to you or anyone else right now. He's looking for it, and with a recovering A, there is no guarantee of if/when they will even find it.
I'm sorry you're going through this trouble. Focus on what's good in YOUR life, and find out about Al-anon nearby. The face to face support is immeasurable in its worth!