Please don't call yourself a loser. We've all been there. This is my third attempt at sobriety, and like you, I would beat myself up after every relapse. Just remember that alcohol is a demon that wants to hold onto you at all costs. The really nasty thing is that the more you beat yourself up, the worse you feel about yourself, and because you feel so bad you want to drink all that much more. Don't listen to that ugly voice - that's the alcohol talking, not you. You are a human being and you have so much worth. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and tell yourself this is a new day and a new start. You will get there, and we will help you all we can.
