DisplacedGrits,
You are not a loser! Please don't think that way. Alcoholism is a tricky thing. You just don't know HOW to quit. Rational Recovery and AVRT really helped me. AA is a good program and it helped me straighten out other areas of my life. Check out the Addictive Vioce Recognition thread in Secular Connections. Lots of good stuff there.
Don't give up. You can get sober, stay sober and be content.
Love from Lenina