Hi Free2012
Thanks for sharing your story. I've never done coke myself but I can identify with your story a lot
Support was the key for me staying in recovery - accepting my problem, and learning to reach out when I was struggling.
I know you'll find support here
You may also want to check out our substance abuse forum as well:
Substance Abuse - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
Welcome!
D