FallenAngel - I also used alcohol to stop feeling shy & self-conscious. I always felt all eyes were on me, and everyone was looking at me in a critical way. I couldn't get up in front of a class in school, or participate in gym normally - all those things were agony for me. So when I found my 'cure' I was very happy until everything came crashing down around me.
What I needed to do was grow and mature so I could get over my shyness. I never learned to face up to things in a normal way, without my crutch. It was a fake feeling of confidence - I never changed at all. It's ironic because I feel much more outgoing and self-confident without alcohol. It took a little while to get used to feeling real emotions, but it's what I needed to do. I hope you'll enjoy the feeling of freedom as you break free of your addiction. We're so glad you found us, Angel. You are not alone.