Thanks Dee for making me feel not alone in my awful shyness.
I have had a few embarressing moments drunk of course but nothing really that I cringed over or dwelled on. There have been so many humiliating moments for me when I could not carry on a conversation or even just be around people. I actually will feel a panic attack coming on, sweat like crazy (it can be seen) and I'd mumble something and escape to a bathroom or wherever.
When I'm drinking I'm a different person, I've made so many friends drinking actually, friends that I can't even talk to when I'm sober. Being shy has ruled my life, and held me back in so many ways and alcohol became my answer. Unfortunately, it also became an addiction that will eventually kill me, if I let it.