Hi Fallen Angel
I'm shy too and I turned to alcohol to help - I'm surprised your most cringeworthy moments are when you're sober tho - my drunken embarrassment list was truly mortifying.
These days - I accept I'm shy.
It's me.
I am what I am.
I've accepted that - and recovery helped - by working on myself I've become comfortable with who I am.
I no longer cringe at my behaviour - I no longer feel like a freak.
My life's immeasurably better for leaving alcohol behind
Welcome to SR
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