13 days sober and finally... finally tonight my anxiety was manageable. I still took just half of a clonazepam and 1/4 of the beta blocker just to take the edge off but I'm positive I would have been okay without it. Normally my anxiety kicks in at 3, I was okay at 4:30am. I'm finally getting through the anxiety. And it feels great! Thank you everyone on SR for all the support. I won't be going anywhere, though. I'll still be here everyday.