Originally Posted by
soberbrah 
makes me feel good
Feelings come and go, though. What can you do to improve your situation? It sounds like you're going to meetings, correct? Is there anything you're doing to address the depression and anxiety?
There's no doubt alcohol can make you feel good -- but it doesn't change anything. It sounds to me like you're longing for something that won't be found through drinking, so why not look elsewhere?