The holidays are so hard.
I'm happy to see you have a husband to share this with. I wish I had a husband who was with me in this, it's got to make it easier in some ways.. You are blessed with that. My other kids, AS's siblings, are supportive, and I'm blessed with that. I read of others on this board who are going through this with no one who understands and supports them.
As hard as it is, life is still providing it's blessings.
May the new year bring happiness and good things to all of us!