12 days sober today, better, but still having nightly anxiety.
Today is 12 days sober. Tonight is also night 5 of taking 1 clonazepam and 1/2 beta blocker per night. It seems to become less effective each night. Tomorrow I have laid out a plan of activities to keep myself busy during my anxiety such as disassembling some old LEGO toys and remaking them into new stuff (childs play but still distracting, and I still love LEGOs), playing Super Smash Brothers Melee on Gamecube, chatting on SR Recovery chat, and watching Netflix. Going to try to suffer through it tomorrow without the meds (unless I really need them) and then call my doctor on Monday to come up with a new plan. Perhaps an anti-anxiety med that is non habit-forming and doesn't develop physical dependency. I guess we'll see.
Thanks again everyone for all the support you've shown me for the last week. I have tried to repay the support as much as possible. And, just so I'm clear, I'm not looking for medical advice of any kind, just wanted to update my status in a fresh thread.