Originally Posted by Mammyof3boys

I am really trying to stay positive. I know that sobriety is the best way for me to live my life but now I need some help understanding what my new reward will be. In my 20's I was a weekend binge drinker worked all week and got drunk every sat night as a reward for all my hard work. Late 20's I got drunk nearly every weekend as a reward for all my hard work as a stay at home mom. Then my 30s brought nightly drinking as a relaxation reward for being a mom. I know the reward should just be being a mom. So now everyone please help me find a new way to reward myself. Healthy living is definitely one but I just wonder what is all my work for? I wish I could just drink like my husband. He has control, no guilt and no hangovers. I wish I could be normal but I was hiding alcohol the last few months. Pretending I didn't drink 6 but only 3. I wish I was normal.