Alcohol is very like that controlling friend or partner who keeps you away from other people, tears down your self esteem. and makes you believe It's your only friend and that you really need It to survive.
There is a life without alcohol and it's far better than I ever imagined - but you have to take that first leap.
I know you have anxiety issues - but alcohol's not helping those. It wouldn't helping whatever meds you're on either.
I agree with Anna too - I used to hate my life - but all I did was drink and watch television too, so it no wonder I hated it.
There's so much more to do - the only limit is your imagination.
Volunteering really helped me too.
Make some changes Brah - you're not alone - you'll find a lot of support and encouragement here
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