just can't drink tonight...
I'm going to a party where the booze will be free-flowing and I just can't drink. I start my new job on Tuesday, and part of the agreement for it is I have to be breathalyzed every morning before work, as well as being subject to random drug and alcohol urine analysis. So I just really can't drink tonight...and yet there is a part of me that is so self-destructive it might still take hold of me and make me drink. I'm getting anxious just thinking about it so I wanted to come on here and post. I already went to one AA meeting this morning and I'm going to hit another one this evening. Support is appreciated!!