Glad you are back, him. Your story sounds almost identical to mine. Quit for 2 months, didn't do AA or any support groups because I was feeling good and didn't think I needed the help. Then WHAMMO, didn't take long and I was right back in that same dark place. It happens. Don't beat yourself up for it, just pick yourself up and start again. You can do it. It's hard but the new life you will have will be SO worth it. We are all with you.