You like many in inpatient rehab - expect that the "cure will be given to them"
After all if you are in Betty Ford, or Hazelden, why not ?
They are famous enough places !
(whether inpatient or AA )
But let me tell you the truth: YOU are Powerless over your drug of choice !
No cure will be given to you - not even 1/2 cure
YOU will have to work for everything you get and work HARD !!
This is a both a brain disease and a spiritual disorder - It won't be easy.
You need commitment from the heart and motivation from the soul.
It also helps to have an addictions counselor who likes you and gives you extra help.
YOU are up against a destructive, nefarious disease that wants you to relapse - and wants you in the gutter, and to self destroy yourself for good.
Don't kid yourself. Why do you think so many relapse ??
SURRENDER your ego and your arrogance, and stop trying to run the show !! GET GOOD HELP NOW !!
Yes you have low self esteem and still have both !
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