We've all been there, done that, and high functioning too, whatever that means. I think the only difference between the worst examples that we aren't like, and us, is just a few extra years of denial and drinking. You came to the right place here at SR, it helped me survive and thrive as a sober person. Use all the tools you can and don't listen to the ones saying why you
can't. Here we have many folks from all over the world to help you with how you
can if you are willing to do the work.