Originally Posted by Mammyof3boys

Hi everyone, I am new to this website and not even sure if I am posting in the right place, maybe I should have posted on someone elses thread. I am working on Day 5 of alcohol free. I took my last drink in the early hours of Christmas morning and I have really had enough of the deep depression alcohol brings me. I know I am depressed and I feed my depression with its drug of choice = alcohol. I have 3 beautiful boys and I can remember so many of my own chilldhood Christmas moments ruined by my parents and family members alcoholism. I just dont want the same for these 3 boys, I never want them to have the shame, embarrasement, or bad memories that I still recall. I want them to have a stress free childhood, not like the one I had. I know I need support, I have tried to quit so many times before, but I really feel there is a change in me this time. As I approach 2012, I just want a better life for them and me.
Any advice would be soo appreciated. The evenings are very hard.