I identify with being ready but not being willing 4S.
I hated my drinking life, but it was all I knew. The idea of sobriety was scary, terrifying to me...
But this is a great community here - there is no better support. You're not alone
and you will find like I did, that the fear of change was way greater than the change itself.
My life is immeasurably better than it was 5 years ago. Quitting was the ebst thing I ever did bar none.
You can do it too
[Btw I recommend the pouring down the sink and take a walk method - hangovers are not a good way to start the day
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