You are like a lot of people here. I suffer from anxiety (GAD) and do take medicine but the liquor seems to work better for me. The people in here have been so supportive. I wish I can say that I have quit but I have not yet but the people here are slowly moving and motivating me. Stay here, listen to some smart people. You are still a very young man with a great life ahead of you if you can get sober. Stay strong and keep posting.