I really want that beer today though. Funny because the days I expect the cravings to be the worst are no big deal. Like Chirstmas eve - at Jets vs. Giants game. I'm with a large group of people tailgating and everyone is drinking. I was FINE. I drank coffee, water, soda, hot chocolate - and it didn't bother me at all to see everyone else drinking. And I had a great time. I have a much harder time when I'm just home relaxing. I used to drink home alone all the time, so it's really difficult for me now. I don't know what I'm going to do. It really sucks because I work very hard, and I want my home to be a place where I can feel safe and relaxed. Instead I feel like I have to avoid it. I'll just go to the gym today after work and hopefully I can just go home and go to sleep after. Sleep isn't so easy these days either. I hope that gets better soon.