Originally Posted by
Dominica2 
I just need an inpatient, not outpatient. I need therapy, to get through this depression, if im still depressed, i will just turn right back to drinking. I need at least a 30 day program of intense recovery.
Dominica, I agree with you. But first you need to address the issue of your suicidal thoughts. No rehab, AA or secular organization is qualified or prepared to help you with that. You need to regain your will to live, in order to be ready for rehab. Please, believe me, these thoughts and this depression need to be addressed first.
You are not alone in this, there are others who go through this. And there is no shame in it.
Your little daughter deserves to have her Mom around, a healthy Mom. Do it for her.
There have been many excellent suggestions here. Please follow up on one or several of them. You have options, Dominica. And you have the power to change your life for the better.