Getting clean and sober is not easy. I am not an alcoholic/addict, but I have been around them all my life, both sober and using. Just remember that recovery is a personal decision, and that it comes ahead of other peoples' opinions. There is a lot of support available from people who have been through it and understand what you are going through. Don't deny yourself the opportunity to change because some people in your life won't understand. In the end, those who care about you will still care. Hugs, Magic