Hi Artie. Sound like you already know you have a drinking issue. Don't worry about the label. Worry about You. How long do you think you'll be happy living this way? And if you happen to kill some family while you're out drinking and drivIng. Think about what that will be like to live with forever.
When I finally couldn't stop (after telling myself every morning I would) I knew I needed to stop and needed support. It took me 2 more years to make the commitment to stop. Itsbeen hard - good but hard. It will be worth it. I'm sure you've noticed it's only gotten worse. I'm sorry to say there's no going back.
There's different support. AA, this web site, AVRT, books etc
It will be good. You can do this