Hi Arlie and welcome to SR.
Usually it's pretty active here but with the holidays I guess it's pretty quiet.
Most people will tell you only you can decide if you are an alcoholic. I'd say youvegot some very serious things on your list.
I know it's scary. I know it seems hard. But being sober is the best lifestyle decision I have ever made. Dont worry so much about the label...try and give it up for 6 months and then re-evaluate. If you can't make it 6 months, well then, that is probably your answer
