Hi TrueReligion! Welcome! FT is right when she says that you are lucky. It took me 12 years of being addicted to pills before I finally quit. You can only imagine how much money I blew through. I am on Day 27 now, and I also have not told my family about my addiction. I just told them that I had the flu. I'm feeling much better now. Also I don't really have a lot of energy, I had to force myself to get things done as the holidays are on our doorstep. About your dealer. Delete the numbers. If you have no access to the pills, you are less likely to relapse. The second week was the hardest for me with regards to the mind games. I was questioning if I really wanted to quit, is it a good time to quit, all these crazy thoughts. I can honestly say that I don't obsess over the pills anymore. I think about them once in awhile, but not very often anymore. Good Luck and Merry Christmas!