You made the right choice. I too am a pill addict. I have a month of clean time and feel better each day I'm clean. The mental part is a true daily challenge for me as well. Today all I could think about was how much I miss being high!! It's when I'm bored my addict brain wants pills to give me something to do. I know that I need to find something healthy to keep my brain active. The couch is not it!! Keep going strong, read some threads.