Hi Tammy
Welcome back
I thought, hey why not a beer, even though i knew after three I would not have any ambition to do anymore and would continue to drink until I was done...which is what happened.
sounds to me like you knew why not?
I know it's difficult to do things differently - but we really have to if we want change in our lives.
I had to learn that instead of reaching out for the beer I had to reach out for help - otherwise nothing ever changed.
What have you been doing for support?
D