Tammy,
Know how you feel. I did that in October after going sober for about a week. That lasted until just as of recently.
Like others here have said, I have recognized that I am absolutely an alcoholic. I cannot have one single drink ever. If I do, I slide down immediately and fast. So instead I come here at night. I brew myself a pot of tea and have a cuppa. I go to the gym. I do anything possible to ignore that "voice" that tells me at around 430pm that "wouldn't it be GREAT to have a drink". That voice is so slick, so conniving, so charismatic and in the past so good at getting me to succumb all over again.
Find some sort of diversion to keep your mind busy, it helps, at least for me.
Take care! :ghug3