I'll spare you the lecture and just tell you what I've done. before the "gee a drink would enhance whatever i am doing", either wrapping gifts, talking, watching TV or whatever...i've learned that the end of this *romance* is ugly and self-defeating, it steals my happiness and sense of accomplishment, it steals my time.. You are in control to shut it down and move in the opposite direction. I now know that anything can trigger me, from a commercial on TV to icecubes in a glass that tinkle.
don't let this turn into a weeklong hell. please stop and get through the next couple of days and enjoy a sober Christmas