Originally Posted by
Scolova 
Tammy, sry to hear that, I sure wish there was a concrete answer to that question. Every relapse I've had has taught me something, many (like yours) were due to being on autopilot. Allowed the addictive part of the brain to take control over me, just as it would during a blackout. Each day sober helps drive the thought deeper into my mind that "I do not drink." remembering 'I' am the one in control and I have to keep it that way 100%.
"Autopilot." What an accurate description of something I've experienced with my own relapses. I didn't beat myself up trying to figure out what my triggers were but I did wonder because I couldn't think of any.
I had some bad cravings last night but thankfully, I shut them down. And they were nothing more than that: Cravings. I didn't NEED a drink. I didn't even WANT one. It was Autopilot trying to take the wheel.