I blew it after 16 days. I was so hungover yesterday, I drove to the store and bought a case of beer and drank almost all of it. I went to bed, woke up in the middle of the night with anxiety, heart racing, sweats and feeling like crap.
WHY, did I do it? Nothing triggered it, I was wrapping gifts, cleaning the house, enjoying the christmas music and I thought, he why not a beer, even though i knew after three I would not have any ambition to do anymore and would continue to drink until I was done...which is what happened.
I am so ashamed, my house is a disaster and I, again, feel like crap...I went through the hardest part weeks ago, the withdrawals, the cravings, the lack of sleep, feeling like I had the flu, the itchy skin, the breakouts in my skin and I finally got back to normal...even lost six lbs and saved over $200 from not buying the beer, and I threw it all away.
HOW, can I beat this disease? So, here I am, back to day 1
I will take what I learned from the first time and hopefully make it work to my advantage.
This will be my first sober Christmas in years....