THANKS! I am trying so hard! It almost seems harder now that he is not drinking. I just feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders. I get nice presents for kids, I am trying to outdo him. (Um, they are under the tree from santa, neither of us are getting credit.) I try to keep a routine and schedule for kids and he always changes something. I am suppose to have 2 evenings a week and I can not even schdule a doctors appointment for fear that he will not ge them. Then, all is suppose to be forgiven because he is in "recovery". I even got guilted into staying home with kids because he wanted to change his AA meeting this week. He goes maybe once a week when he can afford the gas to go to the one he wants. All revolves around him. I say one thing and I am unreasonable and hard to deal with.