Thanks Ken,
I think it is the AA in my town. I need to find another one. I have been through those doors so many times. The last sponser I had was more jacked up than myself. I felt hopeless. I guess I put alot of faith in my higher power. I am a recovering junky, been clean 8yrs. I have exchanged alcohol for my last addiction. I have made a pretty good drunk out of my husband. Hell if you can't beat em join em. I know I should go back to church. That is where it all starts for me. When I drink I have no God in my life. I deny him......I won't allow him to work in my life. That is how I gave up the drugs was I turned them over to him. Amazing!! It makes it hard when there are two drunks in the marriage. We feed off of one another. My husband knows there is a problem. But we do the "oh, just one" thing. Off we go!! I guess I expect my husband to lead me.......knowing that I am responsible for myself. Prayers would be great! Thanks for listening.